Thursday, July 29, 2004


Things have been a little less busy in my mind...which means more pondering...

Haha no...the past couple weeks have been God...and in another word, good. I'm finding that I don't update much because I feel like i have to have something to say whenever I write here. And I honestly try...but I don't feel like dragging out the words if I'm not feeling it at the moment y'know? Every say, month or so...I kind of hit an epiphany about life, God, relationships, and reality and what God. Things come out easy then, but everything in between is somewhat of a fuzz, blur, and mass confusion.

I tend to prefer clarity.

Well you say, why don't you just blog about what's been confusing you or considering? See, most of the time i don't even have clarity on my confusion, so that just throws a wrench in the whole thing. People who ask me how I'm doing often get this response..."hmm....i dunno" in the midst of a bunch of "well, i've been thinking about this" or "this has been wierd."

In other words, I don't have a clue.

Anyways, I don't know what I always bust out with these entries after a long period of silence....I guess I feel the need to justify my absence to the anonymous world wide web.


I believe I am missing out on opportunities, everyday, to be iron that sharpens iron.

In a community, there are the thermometers and the heaters/coolers. The thermometers are the ones that just go with the flow. If people are laughing with something, they'll laugh along. If the conversation is relatively on the surface...they stay on the surface; if the conversation gets deep, they get deep. The go wherever everyone else goes.

The heaters/coolerse are people who direct the conversation. They can direct wherever they want to go.

The thermometers...people who are just kind of there. You know what happens when you get a room full of thermometers? Nothing. But what happens if you get in a community where people are heaters...there are people that change the atmosphere that they are in, they don't conform to room temperature. The room gets HOT HOT HOT. What this world needs is not more needs more heaters. People who walk out the reality of Acts in their daily lives. People who walk with outrageous humility and ridiculous power. People who dispense grace and overflow with love and joy.

I find myself always trying to "fit in" and to be platable to whatever community I'm in. I think there is something to be said about being relevant. Sometimes Christians can get so weird that the weirdness overshadows the message...ok, relevance is good. But I think most of us are too busy being relevant that we have become thermometers. We're indistinguishable from the world. We watch, say, and do all the same things. And on select days we bust out our Christian sub-culture.

I'm being unfair and over-generalized. Ok. Perhaps.

But let me ask you something. When Jesus walked into the room, I can guarantee you He was the hottest thing in there. And I'm not referring to physical appearance. Whether I'm a guy or girl, when I walk into a room...the last thing I want people to be saying is "wow, he/she is kind of cute...I should check them out." What do you think it was a like being a room where Jesus walked in? What do you think it's like when you walk in the room? I want people to experience what it was like when Jesus walked in the room when I walk into a room. I want them to be so aware of the presence of God.

In Acts, people in Peter's shadow were healed. Is that a heater or thermometer? Believers are supposed to CHANGE the atmosphere b/c we carry the life and death of Jesus Christ and his presence with us wherever we go. The Word says that we were to do GREATER things than Jesus and the apostles did!

If this doesn't blow your mind, I'm not sure what does. This blows my mind.

I'm looking at my life and at the church and I'm thinking...hmmm, there's a slight inconsistency between this reality and the reality of God that is found in Acts. God is the same yesterday, today, and I'm thinking ...maybe, maybe there's something wrong with what I'm doing with my life.

Monday, July 12, 2004

You shook me allllll niiiiiiight looooonnnggg

- God's awesome.
- Holy Spirit action.
- Grace to walk in obedience.
- Love, the most exxxxxxxxxxcellent way. duuuuude. :-D
- the Word.
- Answered prayer. Shaun, Tim, and Sharon
- Holy Spirit. Man. Two times on the list because he be doubly cool.
- No broken strings.
- Awkward moments that stretch you.
- Hope.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

hey folks, welcome to the cross

Hey folks...this is a cross link from Tim's website ... He's currently in Korea getting his socks rocked. :)

Today I finally checked out Yoido Full Gospel Church - the largest church in the world! It was so awesome! Revival is continually happening in Seoul, Korea. A revival sustained by prayer, and penetrating into society! The worship during the service was amazing, although I don't think i engaged fully due to taking pictures. = P Thousands of people worshiping together, the presence of God was there touching those open to receive. The message was good. I liked how Dr. Cho's able to relate to seekers, new believers and even mature believers through his message. He sprinkled it with miraculous testimonies. I especially liked how explained how one can become a Christian and had an open altar call at the end of the service. From what I could see, about 70 or so people stood up in the service I was in. The service was about an hour and a half, which was just right. They had a nice choir and a full-mini worship orchestra as well.

After the service we went to the English briefing session to learn more about Dr. Cho and the church. Here are the things I remember and wrote down: (I apologize if my notes are all over the place)

The church has 800,000+ registered members and about 5000 are reported to come to know Jesus Christ as their savoir each month! 12,000+ people can fit in the main sanctuary. They have 9 services a week, 5 on Sunday, 3 on Wednesday. Each service has 5 other over-flow buildings that seat a couple thousand which are nearby. They have 150 satellite churches in Seoul where the messages are broadcast either live or by the internet. If i remember correctly, pastors used to rush to 9 other churches to deliver the tapes so that the congregation can hear Dr. Cho's message. Dr. Cho preaches 3 of the 5 services on Sunday, the other services are given by video tape or by other pastors. The worship team is different at each service, (500+ members on each team). Haha I heard that just to prepare communion, it takes a week to prepare it in advance!

Dr. Cho tells his staff to learn to pray through the flesh. Persevere. He himself prays at least 3 hours a day, sometimes 5 hours. He says that the first hour is just to break through the flesh and then enter into the spirit. When he first started this in his church, people didn't want to do that with him. They told him that it was for the pastor, not regular members. Now, things are different. People see the importance and power of prayer. The pastors are required to pray at least 3 hours a day, one hour before they come to work so that the full armor of God is on. Registered members are required to pray at least one hour a day, straight prayer btw.... not with devotional time or worship. Just prayer.

In the church, not everybody receives the same vision at first. Dr. Cho's visions are slowly accepted by his staff and leadership. He says that as you grow spiritually, God will reveal more. They also own a prayer mountain where thousands-Thousands of people spend their days praying all day on the mountain. They built small rooms so two people can go in on the mountain side to pray. At night people just sleep in the sanctuary (which holds 9000) on the mountain and other overflow buildings that they have. People here are hardcore intercessors. They have 13 buses going from the church to the prayer mountain at every hour and they're usually packed. They also have prayer everyday or something at 5 AM? Fri night prayer goes all night. I'm going to have to check these out. The elder that presented this chuckled when sharing this: when foreigners come, the interpreters leave at 12 AM in the morning only because that's when the foreigners leave. Most members stay till 4 or 5 AM. (Yea we're weak sauce. I'll try to show them that UCSD intercessors aren't that weak sauce! hehe. We'll see.)

The church also owns the 4th largest newspaper, and its office is situated in the 5th largest building in Korea.

As 3 legs hold up a stool, so do these things hold up the church: 1. Prayer, 2. Home cells, 3. Give all the Glory to God.

Elders are mostly business men. I think there are a couple thousand elders, and they come up with the resources to fund whatever God's revealed to Dr. Cho to start.

Members of the church are eager to help pray for anyone. They believe that it's an opportunity for the Lord to bless them as they pray or help others. Cell groups! Cell groups are only to get 20 large and split in half. They've had problems in the past where people want to stay with other people, but Dr. Cho told the church that you're doing this for the Lord and you might be needed in the other group. So, that solved most things. Rich people in the cell group might spoil members or hold too crazy of a fellowship party (food, drinks, etc.) so they limit the cell group time to just be one hour at each meeting and can only serve one drink and a cookie. Haha that's funny. Having a church so big and generous that that is a problem you have to address. Cell groups are told to reach out to their block, neighbors, etc. Get to know your immediate neighbors! Don't intrude, but help when needed. That's your opportunity to serve them and then invite them to a cell group. You pray for all your neighbors and their needs. Cell groups are also grouped by interest.

I hoped this has stirred your faith and encouraged you to begin or strengthen your prayer life. Without prayer, we won't be going anywhere. Blessings you all!

This is a great example of societal transformation...its amazing how Korea has been turned upside down by this church. The thing about pressing into prayer is often, I give up after 15-20 minutes...I just don't have the perseverance to keep on going. But you know what? If we actually prayed like it all depended on God...then we would do that. We have to much to "fall back" on here...its an unfortunate byproduct of blessing.

I have considered everything loss for the sake of knowing Jesus Christ my Lord...

Ambiguously vague (redudantly repetitive)

I'm going to be slightly ambiguous here...but so often powerful encounters with God...Satan always comes in with lies and little twists of truth to bring you down from the mountain. This past week has been amazing in that God showed me a little glimpse of my destiny and part of the path to sounds absolutely ridiculous to be honest, and when it does come true, I think it'll be exponentially better than I could ever imagine it ... Either way, it can be discouraging to see how much further I have to much to learn, so much to be crushed and to be remade. Anyway, I was about to wallow in a bit of self-pity when I heard this:

"Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus
Just to take Him at His Word
Just to rest upon His promise
Just to know, "Thus saith the Lord'

Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him
how I've proved him over and over
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus
Oh for grace to trust Him more

Trust. The main thing that I've been hit with this week and is learning yield to Him more, to be more obedient in all things. It's not about the destination, it's about how cool it is or even how you're going to get there. He just cares that you will go wherever He leads and that you will be willing to be remade in His image. I'm completely terrified, but I trust Jesus more than my own fears. Courage isn't the absence of fear...but it is allowing God to manage your fear instead of letting your fear managing you.

Big words I know...but if it's all for Him, then I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Your love has captured me, oh my can it be?


- His faithfulness
- Old friends
- His power is perfected in my weakness
- Yielding more, trusting more.
- God speaking.
- Sharon's actions
- Kings and priests
- A love stronger than death, set as a seal over my heart
- Holy Spirit's silent insistence, my reluctant obedience
- Calls from parentals.

Friday, July 02, 2004

a life of highest praise, it's all yours

-- GC (Generation Church, youth group at church) last night was tizzight. To enter in is a choice, you can spend the rest of your life in the outer courts...or you can surrender all with a sacrifice of praise, and enter into the beauty, the awe, and the joy of His presence. Why do we accept mediocrity when we can exchange it for abundance? Why do we settle for a life of struggle when He says we have the victory? Why do we toe the lines of sin instead of fleeing from the evil desires of youth? It is always more costly to disobey for the sake of convenience, comfort, or the pleasure of sin instead bearing the cost of obedience now.

-- Joy at work...last week was tough, but this week has been much better.

-- Meeting with Him in the most unexpected places and times.

-- Good talks, good times.

-- Pondering many things, what will pop out?

-- tree63 this weekend in Carlsbad.