"But do not do what they do, for they do not practice what they preach. They tie up heavy loads and put them on men's shoulders, but they themselves are not willing to lift a finger to move them."
1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
It's very humbling to realize that one has spent most of his life on the sideline pointing at all the things that are wrong, with no intention of doing anything about it himself.
Quite honestly, its not difficult to point out what's wrong. Anyone can do that. What separates the men from the boys, what gives you the right to continue to speak such truth, is if you show a willingness to do something about it. This doesn't mean wacking people over the head with bible verses to show how they've sinned.
Take the plank out of your own eye...then you will be able to see CLEARLY and then you remove the speck in your brother. One has NO right to call others to repentance if they themselves are unwilling to submit themselves to the same standard.
I've learned from personal experience, that the most immature people are those who willing to step into the prophetic mantle to speak truth but have no inclination to walk with the character of a prophet. They show no inclination to actually bring change...they just delight in pointing out of the failures and insufficiences of the situation.
I know this because I've done it. I am doing that.
I am no different from the world when I decide to live like this. Maturity is learning to keep my mouth shut when I just want to blurt out all the things wrong. Grace is learning to see both sides of the coin, the good and bad. Love is desiring those to come to conviction and repentance....not condemnation and bitterness. Wisdom is knowing when it is appropriate to speak, when to be silent, and when to act.
I've got a lot to learn...
This year has brought about many changes....I think I've hurt a lot more people than I've realized, and I've been hurt much more than I realize...but this is how you learn. From the seeds of this 'suffering' and 'pain'...even if its subtle or emtional...that's where you will grow the most.
So its not just some sadistic thing ... bwahaha, hurt me hurt me...no...its not like that at all. I think God looks down and sees my weakness...and in his grace and love...he desires for me to grow...to not be repeatedly wounded by the same arrows from the enemy. So sometimes he allows a fatal wound...something that hurts so much that I must go to him for restoration. And because the cross made all things new, I am made whole...and though I carry the scars and the memory...I also now carry Christ's death within me...and the LIFE of Christ.
Oh for grace...to trust you more