Friday, January 30, 2004

Wow .. this is almost as intense as Delirious?' "Obsession" ... that's saying a lot!

You alone are what my soul needs
You know the thirst is taking over
Hardly breath, I'm in urgent need
You know the thirst is taking over

The thirst is taking over

Hold me down, hold me down
Drip it on my tongue
And my convulsions stop
Thirst for love, thirst for Your love
I could swallow Your beauty whole

Running out, time's running out
Searching for the one who can conquer me
I'm going to scream aloud, throw it down
Crash in the sweet obsession of You
I'm going to swim and drown in the wake of You

The thirst is taking over

I wanna taste it
I need to taste it
Deep in the Savior's arms

I wanna drink You in
I am drinking You in
I wanna drink You in

Hardly breath, I'm in urgent need
You know the thirst is taking over
The thirst is taking over

I wanna taste it
I need to taste it
Deep in the Savior's arms

-- Skillet, "Thirst Is Taking Over"
"What Pride does to Revivals"
-Mark Squire.

Why are so many revivals destroyed by excesses, counterfeits, leaders falling into sin, deception, etc? Is there some singular key they missed which will protect us from the same fate?

I believe there is and it is HUMILITY.

Let's have a think about the above areas:

Pride: Will jump in to be associated with whatever sounds good, wants to impress, allows whatever pulls the crowds, is not worried about what is going wrong as long as the good stuff is happening.
Humility: Accepts wisdom and discernment from God, wants to be pure and holy, is not afraid to disappoint people, is careful with prohibiting and permitting.

Pride: Accepts small compromises, keeps secrets, focuses on the sin, attempts to resist in own strength, justifies self, entertains sinful thoughts, believes sin is not that bad.
Humility: Glorifies God in every area, is transparent and honest, focuses on Christ's death as atonement, submits to God then resists the devil and flees youthful lust, brings self unto submission, takes every thought captive unto the obedience of Christ, knows all sin separates us from God.

Pride: Follows the crowd, demands its way, cannot be corrected, judges by appearance, will change to become acceptable.
Humility: Can challenge the crowd, evaluates it's way, is open to correction, looks for fruits and lets God show roots, will change to become Christ-like.

Pride: Argues, decides hastily, is offended easily, tries to sound convincing, preserves ego, can be over-complicated or too simplistic, is insecure.
Humility: Keeps away from profane and foolish arguments, takes time to consider and pray, gives grace, says it straight, preserves friendship, discerns and avoids distractions but recognizes other factors in an issue.

Let's add some more:

Pride: Plays what sounds good, entertains, over-organizes or is impulsive, follows own ideas.
Humility: Selects lyrics which glorify God, worships in Spirit and truth, is orderly but listening, follows biblical values.

Pride: Convinces, exaggerates or plays down, attempts to be skillful, puts on an act.
Humility: Teaches, talks straight, relies on God to guide and confirm, is honest.

Pride: Pushes from the rear, manipulates, is domineering, boasts of self, enjoys position,
Humility: Leads from the front, asks, is gentle, boasts only in the Lord, accepts responsibility.

Pride: Murmurs and complains, is resentful, flatters, is in for what they can get, usurps or divides.
Humility: Upholds and supports, is respectful, praises genuinely, is in for what they can give. Submits or departs quietly.

Pride: Complicates matters, is angry when the smallest thing goes wrong, criticizes, wants everything it's own way, is careless.
Humility: Makes things as simple and efficient as possible, accepts that nothing is perfect, compliments, listens to other ideas, is thorough.

The word "revival" already has a negative ring to many. If there was true humility, people would see the difference even before God moves.

Jonah 3:10 - "When God saw what they did, how they turned from their evil ways, God changed his mind about the calamity that he had said he would bring upon them; and he did not do it."

See also: Matt 23:12, Col 3: 11-14.

-Mark Squire

Sunday, January 25, 2004

I'm tempted to put on a fat post about how much things have been sucking. But I sense that I'm lacking perspective. Yes, I'm physically tired.

refuse to lose the joy of your salvation ... satan is always attempting to gain that greater portion in your life. be vigilant, and contend to keep what you have been given. love relentlessly, hunger for more, and never forget that jesus loves you more than you can know.

Friday, January 23, 2004

Been kind of avoiding reading Tozer's emails ... sometimes its easier not to get challenged. Here we go...

But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified. --1 Corinthians 9:27

What must our Lord think of us if His work and His witness depend upon the convenience of His people? The truth is that every advance that we make for God and for His cause must be made at our inconvenience. If it does not inconvenience us at all, there is no cross in it! If we have been able to reduce spirituality to a smooth pattern and it costs us nothing--no disturbance, no bother and no element of sacrifice in it--we are not getting anywhere with God. We have stopped and pitched our unworthy tent halfway between the swamp and the peak.

We are mediocre Christians!

Was there ever a cross that was convenient? Was there ever a convenient way to die? I have never heard of any, and judgment is not going to be a matter of convenience, either! Yet we look around for convenience, thinking we can reach the mountain peak conveniently and without trouble or danger to ourselves.

Actually, mountain climbers are always in peril and they are always advancing at their inconvenience. I Talk Back to the Devil, 48.

Friday, January 16, 2004

Heading off to Muirons retreat ... PRAY PRAY PRAY. so need God's grace over this thing ...

Tuesday, January 13, 2004

Joy today, no particular reason ... just God :)

Monday, January 12, 2004

Various things have been weighing on my mind as of late, and the temptation is to yield to those frustrations, anxieties, and cares and to vent, complain, and whine. But this is when the rubber meets the road isn't it? This is when you realize who you truly are on the inside and whether the trust is indeed as enduring as you proclaim in the good times...God reminded me of this post that I made when I first started this blog.

Others May, You Cannot

If God has called you to be really like Jesus He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility, and put upon you such demands of obedience, that you will not be able to follow other people, or measure yourself by other Christians, and in many ways He will seem to let other people do things which He will not let you do.

Other Christians and ministers who seem very religious and useful, may push themselves, pull wires, and work schemes to carry out their plans, but you cannot do it, and if you attempt it, you will meet with such failure and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent.

Others may boast of themselves, of their work, of their successes, of their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any such thing, and if you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.

Others may be allowed to succeed in making money, or may have a legacy left to them, but it is likely God will keep you poor, because He wants you to have something far better than gold, namely, a helpless dependence upon Him, that He may have the privilege of supplying your needs day by day out of an unseen treasury.

The Lord may let others be honored and put forward, and keep you hidden in obscurity, because He wants to produce some choice fragrant fruit for His coming glory, which can only be produced in the shade. He may let others be great, but keep you small. He may let others do a work for Him and get the credit for it, but He will make you work and toil on without knowing how much you are doing; and then to make your work still more precious He may let others get credit for the work which you have done, and thus make your reward ten times greater when Jesus comes.

The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch over you, with a jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words and feelings or for wasting your time, which other Christians never feel distressed over. SO make up your mind that God is an Infinitely Sovereign Being, and has a right to do as He pleases with His own. He may not explain to you a thousand things which puzzle your reason in His dealings with you, but if you absolutely sell yourself to be His love slave, He will wrap you up in Jealous Love, and bestow upon you many blessings which come only to those who are in the inner circle.

Settle it forever, that you are to DEAL DIRECTLY WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT, and that He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue, or chaining your hand, or closing your eyes, in ways that He does not seem to use with others. Now, when you are so possessed with the living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and delighted over this PECULIAR, PERSONAL, PRIVATE, JEALOUS GUARDIANSHIP AND MANAGEMENT OF THE HOLY SPIRIT OVER YOUR LIFE, then you will have found the vestibule of Heaven.

WHEN YOU ARE forgotten, neglected, or purposefully set at naught, and you smile inwardly, glorying in the insult or the oversight, because thereby you are counted worthy to suffer with Christ, THAT IS VICTORY.

WHEN YOUR GOOD is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed, when your taste is offended, when your advise is disregarded, when your opinions are ridiculed, and you take it all in patient, loving silence, THAT IS VICTORY.

WHEN YOU ARE content with any food, raiment, climate, society, solitude, or any interruption by the will of God, THAT IS VICTORY.

LORD JESUS, make Thyself to me
A Living Bright Reality;
More present to faith's vision keen
Than any earthly object seen;
More dear, more intimately nigh:
Than even the dearest earthly tie.

God, let it shake even harder. Keep me in this fire, turn it up, and burn away everything that keeps me from you. No matter how much it hurts; Lord, I know your grace is sufficient for me. Your LOVE compels me to change ... your LOVE compels me not to stay the same. Jesus, it is you that I am after ... it is you that can satisfy this weary heart. I'm hanging on for dear life; and the irony is that I'm starting to realize that they only way to save your life with You is to let it go. Lord, shake this thing until I let go of everything. 'Til I trust you with everything, every thought, every feeling, every action, every little thing. Every path in life must be a path through the cross.

Sunday, January 11, 2004

O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, that so I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, "Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away." Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long. In Jesus' name. Amen. The Pursuit of God, 20.

Saturday, January 10, 2004

Urbana sharing ... uber lite version:

First, I want to thank you all for praying for me while I was Urbana. Some of you emailed and let me know specifically, it was very encouraging to get those emails. Sometimes you know people are praying, but putting a face on those "people" can be encouraging :).

Anyway, its been about a week since I came home from Urbana, school this week was just a tad bit chaotic. So I find myself here on a Friday night really enjoying some quiet and rest. Its actually been quite an interesting week in that people have been asking me about Urbana, and I really haven't been able to give an honest response. I was wanting to write this email a week ago ... But I was at a loss as to what to write. There were a lot of things that God hit on during the conference ... These are some of the things which are still working in my life. (DISCLAIMER: I have a ... Tendency to ramble and be long-winded; sorry! Bear with me :)

-- on Sunday night, the speaker really challenged us with a hard word: "when we let anything other than Jesus define our reality (what we base our lives on), that thing is idolatry." the essence of idolatry being something that has become more real to us than our relationship with Christ. The speaker then listed three idolatries: self-fulfillment (wordly honor, prestige and recognition), self-comfort, and self-empowerment. God's grace was really on this message; I realized all three of these things are in some way or another, deeply entrenched in my life. This false kingdom of self, Jesus calls us to give up everything and follow him. The young ruler in the gospels was so disappointed when Jesus asked him to sell all his possessions, its interesting that he actually had obeyed all of God's commands ... And yet, it was so difficult to give up what he had in the world. Responding to this message was a crucial foundation for the rest of the conference.

-- The next morning, the speaker gave an illustration about what it means to serve a king. "Yes, your majesty." The only words fit for a king. Here on earth, no one ever dares to say "no, I don't think so your majesty," its unheard of ... Because anyone who has said anything like that to royalty gets the sense knocked into them! In the same way, if Jesus is our Lord and King ... How much more shall we say "Yes, your majesty" to whatever he calls us to? And he is a good king!

-- I attended a seminar entitled "How to pray for and engage your unchurched friends." Even before Urbana, God had been convicting me on how much I seemed to be doing "christian activities," endless meetings and gatherings with believers ... But not much evangelism going on. I've attended many seminars about evangelism, this was definitely one of the most helpful. The seminar leader, Pastor Gideon of Liquid, (, an Asian American church thriving in Texas. Some things that he said that were really fresh for me: when we pray for unchurched friends, pray that we will see what God is already is doing in their lives (God is always working, join his work), pray that the hope that we have will inspire questions (no one's ever inspired by religious fundamentalism or loudness, but they will be affected by a living hope!), and pray that we would avoid arguments in relating to unchurched friends. On the side of engaging those friends, Pastor Gideon exhorted us to "love relentlessly." It was incredibly simple, yet that is the core of the gospel, to love our neighbors. If we had any understanding of how God loves people, then we would understand hwo to love others. Funny how often I manage to complicate that into something else. Pastor Gideon also mentioned something else (very rough paraphrase), "If the answer to being spiritual stuck, or spiritual plateaus is having better bible study, resources, planning, and programs... Then the Western church should be the healthiest church in the world." Ouch.

-- I found that the coolest thing about Urbana was their emphasis on cultural diversity and different cultural expressions of worship. One of the most powerful moments of the conference was when a Native American worship team lead worship in their own unique cultural style. Similarly, the most powerful message of the conference (in my opinion) was delivered by the first Native American speaker ever to speak at Urbana. I don't think I really had any "crazy" emotional experiences at Urbana ... But there were moments were the Holy Spirit pierced deep into my heart, and woo... I wasn't the same! "When we become mature, we will not become something we've never been; but we will become the fullness of who we were called to be." As an Asian-American, I haven't gone through much of the discrimination that my parents and others have ... So in many ways I have been fortunate to freely express my identity as an Asian-American. The difficulty however, is that I don't think I've ever truly been able to reconcile the asian with the american. I find so often that I am a stranger in the asian context, and a stranger in the western context. Where do I belong? Why did God make me Asian? Something I realized at this conference was that the person that I am, God fully intended for me to be this way. He took great care in creating every one of us ... Ethnicity and culture are things that he values, I wasn't asian by accident! I guess I've always known this; but God's grace allowed me to understand this truth in my heart.

-- On the second to the last evening, I was hit with the message I had been expecting all week. The call to missions, the call to step out. I was dreading it, because I knew it meant leaving my self-comfort, my self-fulfillment, and self-empowerment. The "what-if's" and "buts," they went on and on. Praise God that his "but" is bigger than mines! "If we focus on our fears, we will never get out the door. Fears never ddisqualify us from participation! This fearful obedience..." And fearful obedience it was ... The speaker asked some piercing questions as we pondered our response: "Do you want to see God in greater ways? Will you risk and dream big for the kingdom? Will you choose the way of Jesus? The way of the cross? Do you know all that you possess? Do you want to be set free?" And in the end, I found myself at the cross in fearful obedience. Yeah, there is so much uncertainty, but I want to see God in greater ways ... I want to risk and dream big for the kingdom, I want to choose the way of Jesus, the way of the cross.

Woo..that was a uhm, a mouthful :). As I find myself a week removed from Urbana ... I can definitely say that the road has been paved to the cross. Every day I realize that I am no longer content in my self-comfort, fulfillment, or empowerment. I want Jesus and nothing else! And everyday is the painful reminded that I'm still clutching onto something of this world. I am no way saying that I am set for the quarter, set for life, or that I have everything together. On the contrary! Haha, I have never been so aware of my limitations and insufficiencies as a brother in Christ, a brother, a son, a student, a worship leader, a friend, the list goes on and on. In some ways, I can honestly say that I have never been so lost in my life ... But on the same token, I have never been more sure of the path that I am taking, because I have asked God to take me down the road of the cross. I don't know where this path will take me, who knows, I may find myself on the mission field some day, being someone crazy, or doing something totally unconventional. But if I realized anything at Urbana ... Is that God isn't so much concerned with whether I'm doing overseas missions or urbana ministry in the states as he is concerned with who sits in the throne of my heart. See all those things relating to identity, missions, career, relationships, evangelism, yada yada yada ... All those things are taken care of if my focus is set on the one who orders my steps, who directs my path.

I dunno, that's an amazing truth to realize :). I'm still trying to figure out this "summer plans" thing out, pray that I am diligent in exploring the doors before me. If you've read this far, haha, thank you. I can only hope God is using this email to encourage you as it has encouraged me. Once again, I thank you so much for your prayers! Our God is an amazing God, and he chooses to work through the prayers of his people.

Trying to live for the only thing I know to be true,

Friday, January 09, 2004

in reflection of this last week's d:77 ...

Come near to the holy men and women of the past and you will soon feel the heat of their desire after God. They mourned for Him, they prayed and wrestled and sought for Him day and night, in season and out, and when they had found Him the finding was all the sweeter for the long seeking. Moses used the fact that he knew God as an argument for knowing Him better. "Now, therefore, I pray thee, if I have found grace in thy sight, show me now thy way, that I may know thee, that I may find grace in thy sight;" and from there he rose to make the daring request, "I beseech thee, show me thy glory." God was frankly pleased by this display of ardor, and the next day called Moses into the mount, and there in solemn procession made all His glory pass before him. The Pursuit of God, 15.

Go Tozer. Go Tozer.
"The Third Floor Remodel Project"
-by Mike Woelk (26 Aug 2003).

I have been using a third-floor corner of a 19th century building as an early-morning prayer closet. The building has a storied history, being home to many successful enterprises over its century. But some time ago it became obvious to the owner that in its present condition, the third floor was no longer profitable.

Over the past few months all the walls have been torn out to produce a very large room destined to be a banquet hall for the restaurant on a lower floor.

Not everyone agreed with the owner. "Those old offices are too lovely to tear out." "That floor layout made a lot of money." But the owner had a keen business mind, and he could look beyond appearances and the successful past. He had only one thing in mind: a profitable future.

He had plans to use all that was salvageable, all that had a place in his new purpose. Throughout the summer a young man who worked for the building owner carefully tore out the old.

Some material, like antique windows and doors, would have a place in the new order, but they would require some costly and time-consuming renovation if they were to be used again. Hopefully they would be able to withstand the process. Hopefully they would not crack or break under the strictures of renovation.

Some things were not touched. Four columns down the middle of the room, even though they will be in the way in a banquet room, are left standing. They support the ceiling.

But some of the work was merciless work with a sledge hammer and crow bar. Some material was so entrenched in the old structure that it was unsalvageable and had to be crushed out and carried away. Some material, though once beautiful and valuable, was too outdated to be of use.

In this season the Lord is taking a wrecking crew to old houses. But He wants to salvage many believers for use in a new house. There are disadvantages to being a living stone in the House of the Lord rather than an inanimate brick. Living stones can choose whether they will be removed from the old. They must decide whether they will give up their sizeable investments in the old in order to be a part of the new. They can choose whether they will submit to the removal blemishes and scars. Other men who are not the owner, who have not made costly investments, come along with attractive ideas of their own. Living stones must decide whether they will volunteer to be a part of some other project which is presented before time. They can choose whether they will lie quietly and wait their time to be placed again in a new thing.

Another problem for living stones is that they do not have the vision or perspective of the Owner. They often only know where they have been and what they have done. So they must trust the owner by faith. Even those living stones which are themselves builders, apostles, must be prepared, as was Paul, to sit even for years until the Lord separates them from the pile and places them in the new structure.

To my delight, a few weeks later the old walls were completed - most of the cracked and disfigured plaster had been removed, and the foundational brick brushed down to be used as solid wall and fashionable finish. As with the House of the Lord, what was foundational still had to be in place or the building would be ruined completely. The basic principles of Christ are not to be hidden.

The third floor is almost ready. The market demand in our city for such a banquet and meeting facility is large. Success is a sure thing. So too, I believe that the processes of the Lord's House rebuilding is approaching readiness for revival.
Look at where we�ve come
a boy becomes a man
But for the first time in our lives
we come without a plan

Careful when you look
for my heart has leprosy
All I want is to see Jesus
just one touch and I�ll be free

Oh, I feel, I feel it�s coming on
When you call my name it feels like heaven

Reach inside of me
deeper than before
Would you tear away this old man
bring peace to this old war
See your piercing eyes
burn me like a fire
If you have me I will run
to finish all that you�ve begun

Hold me tonight, will you hold me tonight
Hold me tonight, it feels like heaven

-- Feel It Coming On, Delirious?

You never let me go
You never let me fall
I know you�re in this pain
And when I�ve got it all
And I�m clinging on to you
�Cos it�s all that we can do
�Cos knowing you is beautiful

-- With You, Delirious?

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." -- Phil. 1:6

"1I want you to know how much I am struggling for you and for those at Laodicea, and for all who have not met me personally. 2My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge." -- Col. 2:1-3

"2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." -- James 1:2-8

Monday, January 05, 2004

Working on the Urbana post ... I'm not quite sure where to start... it seems that God is already start to "deal" with me this quarter. Grant me the grace, Lord!

Sunday, January 04, 2004

Every time I try to talk to you / I get tongue-tied / Turns out everything I say to you / Comes out wrong and never comes out right -- Why Don't You and I, Santana ft. Chad Kroeger from Nickleback

Heh, I think that sentence totally characterizes my relationship with God sometimes. My brain can almostly explode sometimes with things to pray for ... heh, sometimes I even have the wording all figured out. Almostly brilliant. Brilliantly almost. And you know, its absolute garbage yeah? :) Ahh God ... teach me how to pray.
"... but Faramir did not go, for now being healed he took upon him his authority and the Stewardship, although it was only for a little while, and his duty was to prepare for one who should replace him." -- The Return Of the King

"Many folk like to know beforehand what is to be set on the table; but those who have laboured to prepare the feast like to keep their secret; for wonder makes the words of praise louder." -- Gandalf, The Return Of the King

Thursday, January 01, 2004


Fatal crash on wet road

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

By Peter Crowley

GILROY - A 20-year-old Gilroy man died behind the wheel of a sports car after colliding head-on with a pickup truck minutes after noon Monday on Luchessa Avenue, during a period of heavy rainfall.

Jeremy Edward Cooner was a student at De Anza College in Cupertino and was preparing to transfer to San Jose State University in hopes of pursuing a career with the Federal Bureau of Investigation, according to his parents, Ed and Cindy Cooner. He was a graduate of Lynbrook High School in San Jose, where he was a trumpet player and drum major in the school band. He also recently achieved his black belt in Tae Kwon Do.

�He had an easy way of making friends,� his father said this morning. �He was a quality Christian young man. He had a very vital faith.�

The Cooners moved to Gilroy about three years ago and live on Greenfield Drive, about half a mile from the accident scene. They arrived there, on Luchessa Avenue just east of Princevalle Street, within minutes of the wreck and wept when they heard the news.

Their son had been pinned in the driver�s seat of the red Toyota MR2 sports car he was driving. Paramedics pronounced him dead at 12:17 p.m.

The police department�s Major Accident Investigation Team is trying to determine the cause of the wreck and which driver, if either, was at fault. As of Monday afternoon, MAIT officers had identified weather, speed and mechanical issues as possible factors leading to the wreck, according to police Sgt. Kurt Ashley.

�It will probably take them several days to a week� before investigators issue a report, Ashley said - �unless they run into some problems.�

The county coroner�s staff will determine if Jeremy Cooner was intoxicated - standard practice when the death is from a motor-vehicle accident, a staff member there said.

The collision crushed the front driver�s side corner of the Toyota, impacting all of the way back to the driver�s seat. The car came to a rest completely off the road. The other vehicle, a beige Dodge Dakota pickup truck, received heavy front-end damage. The Toyota was eastbound on Luchessa Avenue and the pickup westbound, according to police.

The pickup driver had a sore foot after the wreck but declined medical treatment, according to Ashley. This driver was the sole surviving witness to the accident and gave a statement to police, but police declined to release this statement.

There were no passengers in either vehicle.

Police did not say whether the drivers were wearing seat belts.

Police were called to the scene at 12:08 p.m. and blocked off Luchessa from Princevalle Street to Church Street for several hours Monday afternoon, waiting for a coroner to arrive from San Jose. Jeremy Cooner�s body was removed from the scene at about 3:30 p.m., according to police. The wreckage was towed away and the street reopened soon after.

"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.... And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever. " --1 John 2:15,17

Any appeal to the public in the name of Christ that rises no higher than an invitation to tranquillity must be recognized as mere humanism with a few words of Jesus thrown in to make it appear Christian....

Christ calls men to carry a cross; we call them to have fun in His name. He calls them to forsake the world; we assure them that if they but accept Jesus the world is their oyster. He calls them to suffer; we call them to enjoy all the bourgeois comforts modern civilization affords. He calls them to self-abnegation and death; we call them to spread themselves like green bay trees or perchance even to become stars in a pitiful fifth-rate religious zodiac. He calls them to holiness; we call them to a cheap and tawdry happiness that would have been rejected with scorn by the least of the Stoic philosophers....

I think before Urbana I would have definitely agreed with Tozer's commentary ... but even more so now upon my return.