Thursday, December 18, 2003


Well its been about five days into winter break. And...its been hard :). (I just took a walk with God ... so this will be as little whining as possible). I have no idea why, but been fighting against the emotional funk, apathy, laziness, and various temptations.

Have a little headache and cold symptoms as well.

But, I do not feel condemned ... though I did feel a bit discouraged. I have in mind what things I want to pursue this break, so I trust despite all external signs of suckiness, good things are happening.

Return of the King was as expected, quite excellent. There is a scene in there that was definitely scripted for all the Orlando Bloom fans ... undoubtedly. Go watch it ASAP.


And the things of earth will grow strangely dim...


I want to be set apart, right to the very heart ...


Praise God for my grades :). I ended up with a A- in CSE 101 ... the final which I thought I got totally worked in. Definitely provision going on there :). Its a testimony to God's faithfulness throughout the quarter. The irony is that the final that I thought I rocked, CSE 140, ended up giving me a B+. I thought I would be getting a B ... so that's kind of a praise as well.


Tozer for the day...

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world. --John 16:33

We are all idealists. We picture to ourselves a life on earth completely free from every hindrance, a kind of spiritual Utopia where we can always control events, where we can move about as favorites of heaven, adjusting circumstances to suit ourselves. This we feel would be quite compatible with the life of faith and in keeping with the privileged place we hold as children of God.

In thinking thus we simply misplace ourselves; we mistake earth for heaven and expect conditions here below which can never be realized till we reach the better world above. While we live we may expect troubles, and plenty of them. We are never promised a life without problems as long as we remain among fallen men....

What then are we to do about our problems? We must learn to live with them until such time as God delivers us from them. If we cannot remove them, then we must pray for grace to endure them without murmuring. Problems patiently endured will work for our spiritual perfecting. They harm us only when we resist them or endure them unwillingly. Of God and Men, pp. 121-122

"Lord, I'm so homesick for heaven. But until You allow me to come home, I do indeed 'pray for grace to endure [problems] without murmuring.' Amen."

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